Friday, October 26, 2007

Chapter 29

Do you want to improve the world?
I don’t think it can be done.

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  1. Sam Hamill translation:
    Everything under heaven is a sacred vessel
    and cannot be controlled.
    Trying to control leads to ruin.
    Trying to grasp, we lose.


    I know grasping. It happens when I am weak and needy. The biggest grasp in my life was trying to keep a marriage when my spouse did not. I couldn’t imagine any other way of doing it, of living my life. But, alas, I could not fix it.

    Lesson learned: Stop looking for my happiness beyond myself. Let go of everything except that which does not release--my essential self.

    So, I was thinking about the book, of how I could let it go for it feels like the center of my life. Will I ever get this book published? I dwell on it more than I write it.

    Dwell. Isn’t this a form of grasp? Yes. To dwell on some thought is like grasping for a husband who is already gone. Like clinging to dreams and memories and the way things should be. How to let it go? Put the "object of grasp" in the care of the universe, no less. What happens next? I am free to write without thinking “this has to be good enough." I let go the outcome and enjoy the process of writing. I still have a goal, I’m thinking of self-publishing. I can be the editor, publisher, book designer, graphics and text expert. Contrary to my fear of losing, I have gained my book! I can leaf through the days of my life in colorful tones and enjoy.

    The Master sees things as they are,without trying to control them.
    She lets them go their own way,
    and resides at the center of the circle.


    By the way, that ex-spouse of mine? We are both happily married to good people. Go figure.

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